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hi Gail

If I don't get on the thread tomorrow I wish you a very happy birthday, filled with joy and laughter.

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Gill

Morning all. Well today is the first of six two hour weekly group meetings for the Becoming more confident course. Ten till twelve. So going to work first then back afterwards. Getting kinda worked up about it now. No rescue remedy, and could do with it. Have to go get ready, so see you later.
Have a good day xx

Carole, can feel the confidence seeping from you now. What a great course to do. Think I will drag out my old communication skills books and do some revision.

Thank you Gill, will be having a quite day, maybe mow the rest of the grass (mainly clover yet). Will be going out Saturday as OH works evenings.

Gail

morning all just poped on to wish carole good luck for today hugs to all on here xxelaine

OMG I have another 11 quart basket of each pears and peaches and 6 qt of field tomatoes given to me this morning, so I'll be making more chutney it seems.
Sarah had a good b'day yesterday, slept well the cake is entirely gone as she kept asking for more, and grandmothers are allowed to spoil grandchildren.

Gail I have another source of eggless recipes for you - the lady for whom Megan works is a baker and does a lot of allergy baking and cooking. let me know what type you need and I'll ask her for you.

Ordered a blind for my bathroom window this morning, tired of hanging a sheet over the curtain rod!!
the 2nd / 3rd degree burn on my arm is finally starting to heal just a small area still draining, the rest is pinking up and looking healthier.
nearly did it again last night, using Colleen's saucepans and the lids are flat, no lip round the edges so the steam escapes too easily.

Have to run, gareth got up at 4am and went on the settee, then wet the settee this morning in his sleep, so I have to try and shampoo it, never enough to do around here. Have 2 hours left till I leave to pick them up again, where does the day go..

BTW my mood seems pretty stable at 50mg Citalopram for the past 3 days. Now there's hope I can get down to the correct 40mg daily dose.
Staying at home for 2 weeks has helped too, lack of work-related stress does wonders.
Mary

feeling very down today. Having been so up about work today's events brought me crashing back down to earth with a very big bump.

The supervisor has come back from having 2 weeks off so she dosnt really know me got a phone call from sons school Monday and twice today (he has multiple learn difficulties) so as suggest to me by a fellow worker i went into another room to take the call rather than take it sat at my desk. The supervisor asked me if it was important and i told her it was the school. Then later on as i was walking to the loo which is down the corridor from our office i was replying to text as i went. I genuinely was going to the loo and not just using it as an excuse to use my phone unfortunately the supervisor saw me and when i got back into the office told me off for using my phone said that other people had noticed that i was using my phone a lot and that if i needed to take an urgent call i should do it at my desk!

I did try to explain that i was not abusing the rules and that the only calls i took were from my sons school and that i had been told not to take calls at my desk etc but it was clear she didnt want to know.

Then she wanted to know how many boxes of documents i had left to do and suggested that i should be able to do 2 boxes or at the least a box and a half be then of the day.but i didnt even mange to get one box finished so now i am worried that i am not quick enough and that she is going to try and get rid of me.

Then just to make a bad day even worse i decided to go and have a word with the boss and explain about my son and the reason why i get so many phone calls but i found myself getting all emotional and choked upped so god know what they think of me!!!

I want to do well this is the first proper job i have had since my son was born but making the shift from being at home most of the time to working 5 days a week is harder than i thought.

Claire

perhaps a quiet word 1st thing in the morning would be better when you have had a good nights sleep.. it seems your supervisor needs to show some understanding with your case.

sending positive thoughts to you hun
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Gill

Thanks for your good wishes for this morning.
We all sat in the waiting room not daring to look at one another, let alone smile or talk. Then were taken to the room where the course was held. Two nice young ladies took the group of ten. We were asked to turn to a person sat next to us, and introduce our self, tell them our favorite food, where we were born and what we would do if we won the lottery.
I didn't want to talk to this strange woman next to me!! We did talk, and she ended up telling me stuff she said he hadn't even told her friends who have known her for years. One woman was crying after ten minutes poor girl. Goodness did I have the s****
before going to work and before leaving work to go to the meeting. Tea and biscuits were available my drink got cold cause I was too nervous to drink it. I dare not have a biscuit as I would never have got it to my mouth with the way my hands felt shaky lol.
One down five to go. :o))

Claire sorry to here about your manager speaking to you today about your phone calls. She has said her bit so will maybe stand back but keep an eye on you. Just keep your head down and show her you want to work. You have three months to show them you can do the job. xx

I have bad stomach ache tonight so am going to lay on setti with Hayley. ( my daughter is home for a couple of days)

See you later xxxx

I have not posted for a while, so am just catching up with everyone's messages.We are all looking for support, comfort and advice here, or are just greatful we can unburden ourselves, knowing we will get a sympathetic 'ear'.
Welcome to the new members, it is not always easy to take the first step, is it? I am very glad I did.
There are so many names to remember, I am afraid it is rather difficult for me to name all those who have posted here, but wish you all well, and hope you will find solace here.
David for one, stands out by telling us his experience with valium. My brother was prescribed this after a horrendous accident back in 1960.He was in a coma for 3 weeks,never had any counselling of course.He was prescribed valium, which he became hooked on, until the day he died, 19 years later.They gave them out like sweets back then.
Sorry to hear that Allan was treated so badly Deanna, it is enough to make your blood boil, isn't it?


Thank you all for listening.Hope you all have a good day.

Eileen xx

Hello everybody, havnt posted for a few days, not realy had the time but its so good to know your all there and an ear will be leant just in case, hope you all have a nice day and are fit and jolly, Im off outside as its dry for a change, very dull but dry. Meant to ask has anyone tried these light boxes for SAD and are they any good, would be glad of any advice about them, about the different types where to get them etc. Thanks, Take care all, regards Dawnx

Good morning ... ooops it is afternoon, thought I had made it but here I am , late again.

Thank you all for caring about Allan.
He was very tired for the rest of the night and all yesterday, but he is feeling better now.
Once they got him into the unit, they were very very good to him, so it would be silly to phone and moan to them about his treatment.
I do think I need to say something to someone about the treatment at reception right up to the nurse who took him from our son.
But he had nothing but praise for the medical staff in there so I'm not going to upset any of them.
He was particularly pleased about the doctor who came out to speak to him and told him what he had done and what he had found..... a very sore spot which is the result of the damage done by the misplaced 'injection' which Allan had!!
THE FIRST TIME A DOCTOR HAS AGREED THAT THAT WAS WHAT HAPPENED!!
That in itself gave Allan such a lift.
If I tell you that he has hoovered the bungalow this morning, that will tell you how well he is feeling.
Now we have to wait for the results of the biopsy which the doctor took while he was in there.
He did say that it did not look like anything sinister, but then I will not be allowing myself to be too happy about that until we get the results.

Now, about you all.
I am so sorry that I have not really been around for any of you lately, but You know that i have had computer problems and I was ill too.

Dawn it is lovely to see that you are sticking around love, this is a good thread and we are all in the same boat.
There is probably nothing you could say that *someone* will identify with. I have found it a great help. It is like having a family which you have *hand picked* for yourself.

Betty I have not seen you for a while, or have i just been so wrapped up in myself?
Hope you are doing well love.

Gail have a great birthday whatever you are doing.
AND... yes please I'll have a piece of cake and a coffee with cream and no sugar please! Thank you. ;-0)

Eileen so nice to see you on here, I think you and I should come on more often.... I know you think so too. So hows' about us trying harder?

Claire how are you feeling today love?
I know that people at work can be such a pain sometimes.
You are doing a good job and you need to let that woman... whoever she is.... about the arrangements you made about your boy.
The is one in every work place... the place would fall apart without her there I'm sure... NOT!

MaxiMary, I just do not know how you manage to do the things that you do in one day. a veritable *power house*.. not to mention the best of mothers and grandmothers.
Pity you did not live closer, you could adopt Allan and me!
We are too old to be cute, but old enough to be company.
AND, we would let you work as much as you like in our home and garden!! ;-0)

Carole, I missed what it is you started yesterday. What was it and how did it go?
Gill, Angela, and anyone I have missed, please don't think I missed you on purpose, it is just that I get pretty tired after typing to much, and i have a bit of a head coming just now.

Joyce P, where are you darling? XX

see you all later, after dinner and a rest.
love to all,
Deanna XXX

Since quitting Valium after so long an addiction I do not find myself walking around in euphoria, on a constant high, that would be odd.

No, I sometimes find my self in a deep depression and at times I be short tempered, but only briefly, An emotional reaction? a back lash ? I really don't know. I'd rather endure that than be an addict, unecassarily.

Intensity of emotion is preferable to dulled emotions

You are soooo right Deanna, it makes me feel somewhat better after putting my woes into words here.Sometimes I just don't have the (mental) strength to do even this.
I have been feeling really rough these last 5-6 weeks, with flu-like sypmtoms etc. Was thinking of going to the GP, but keep putting it off, as I really don't like doing this. Today, there was a thread from someone who mentioned that her mother has been diagnosed with something that sounds an awful lot like my sypmtoms. I only hope & pray that I haven't passed on anything to my daughter Andrea when I was in Brittany.She has been told, yet again, to avoid everyone with so much as a cold, so anything else could be very serious for her.I don't really care what happens to me, but care deeply about her health, about all my children,g.children and g.grandchildren's health, and, am extremely worried about Andrea's husband Rudi these last 12 months, as he is overweight, (how on earth this can be, when you think of all he has to do) something which normally wouldn't worry me, as he has to work extremely hard, but, when we moved their son Finn to an appartment in Brest (I was there on holiday), I was very worried and shocked to see how breathless he was, after climbing 4 flights of stairs each time. Not only that, he had a sort of grey colour, and was sweating profusely, what made me think he would have a heart attack.I am very fond of him, so was extremely worried about him, but also for my daughter Andrea, because I can't stop thinking what would become of her if he should indeed 'go under', as they say here in Holland. This makes me feel guilty too.Andrea would be completely helpless, because she relies on Rudi doing so much for her, and for keeping things 'running'. Some of you know what I mean. ( B & B)
Sorry for going on and one about my little worries, some of you have far worse than mine.
Must finish up in the (far too big for me) back garden, then think about a snack, a meal is too much trouble.
Love to all and thanks for listening again.

Eileen xx

Hi everyone, I never seem to have any time to post these days, spent most of the morning on the phone with different people. Well it's all happening now, I saw my consultant yesterday and she said the cancer is coming back, I have a new lump (like heatlumps) and so she is trying me with a new hormone tablet instead of chemo. the type of cancer I have is oestrogen dependant, so the tablet stops the cancer cells getting any oestrogen so they starve and shrink. I also have to have an X-ray on my hip where I have a lot of pain, she wants to make sure the cancer in my pelvic bones haven't spread to my hip. Then I have a CT scan and a bone density scan appointments to come through the post. On top of that the hospital rang this morning to ask if I could make it to see a Neurologist on Monday morning. I have my card for X-ray and can go any time to whichever hospital so I might as well go to St Lukes on Monday and get them both over with the same day.
Did I once say my life was boring?

Claire I agree with Carole to just keep your head down and get on with the job, it's never easy going back to work full time after having children. You will find the more you do it the more confident you will get, it's all new at the moment.

Deanna I'm pleased for you and Allan and hope the result turns out well. I promise I will write, I just keep falling asleep all the time.

Glad to see our newbies are still writing and I hope you all get some comfort from it, they are a great bunch of people on here.
Oh I've been called for my tea. Carole the next meeting will go better when you know what to expect. I haven't heard anything about sheltered housing yet, it will most likely come out of the blue when we least expect it.

love and hugs to all
Caz xx

Caz, you are still waiting for sheltered housing???
that is dreadful.
They moved me so quickly and it still seemed like too long for me. It does when you are so ill doesn't it?
I am not worried about you not writing love, you sleep as much as you want, it will do you more good than writing to me. You just look after you and when all is well.... then you can write to everyone.
You are right about hospitals.... you are never lonely with a medical problem... inundated with letters, invitations to clinics and hospitals. Best of all is all the new friends you can make sitting in waiting rooms! Well if you talk as much as I do, you can! ;-0)

I am like you Eileen getting on here is often quite a job. by the time I have finished all the e-mails, I don't have the energy... but knowing you are all here is great.

My tea almost ready too.
Nothing much exciting, we eat our main meal early.
Good night everyone, have a good rest and I will see you all tomorrow.
Love to all,
Deanna XXX

went into work today absolutely dreading what was going to be said but nothing was. Made a point of talking about my son to various people explaining all the problems he has and why i get so many calls from school etc which hopefully will put an end to any unfounded rumours about my excessive phone calls. the only trouble is talking about all his problems is quite depressing (he has Dyspraxia ADHD and Autism) i try not to think about all the problems and how each day is a constant balancing act between helping him with the things he struggles with and letting doing things for himself in order to make him more independent and be able to hold his own in the outside world, but such is my life i cant complain too much hubby is doing a wonderful job of keeping the house clean and tidy and having my tea ready for when i get home.

Love and (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))) to all

Claire

Claire couldn't the school phone your husband at home if there is a problem?

Last night I had to move my sons car. I picked up some rubbish to bin, and on the floor were two letters from his work. One asking him to meet the manager about his poor performance, the other about him having too much time off. He has a disciplinary meeting today. He has never mentioned a thing at home. Infact talks as though he is the one holding the place together. I couldn't sleep last night and have awful head ache today. I haven't told oh yet. I know I can't change anything and what will be will be. But I am worried because I don't want him to loose his full time job, they are not easy to get. He still owes my parents about £900 he borrowed for his car. If he has had two warnings he could be out next time. He was dyspraxic as a kid and still has problems which are not so obvious to others, I worry about him. I thought he was doing well.

hello all,just came on for abit as some may no not been well,but i think its time i let this out some probley knew the lady Just Joyce i use to call her on her mobile and chat i knew as she did she was going to die but hoped it would be for alittle longer,then one day nothing kept on texting and emailing her i knew something was wrong,as she always text back and the last time was she was ill and very frighten,as her life was coming to end later on due to information she had died,that realy hit me hard i no the family were griveing but they could have let us no,she was well liked and aloverly lady and ive had hard time coming to terms with her death have never spoke about this before,but i read thread once when joyce was alive and they were asking if you had one rollo left who would you give it to ,just Joyce put i would give mine to Dutch shes always there for me and i.ll always remember that and never forget her
Deanna how are love still ploding along like me
Eileen thank you for another cared tried to ring you on your mobile yesterday
Caz my pal you hang in there as when im well im going to surprises you knock on your doorlol
Liz,my friend so anice lady package in post for you
Betty did they arrive yet and could you give me the phone number of yours must have left one number out
Tinkerbell hope your doing abit better
and to all those i have,nt mention take care all of you
Gail Happy belated birthday wish i was 57 againlol
Dutchxx

OMG Dutch thank you so much for telling us. I still
email Just Joyce, send her funnies. Bless her and her family who must all be at a total loss. RIP Just Joyce


Dutch it's good to have you home, hope you are feeling much better xx

getting there still got back pains but if i do as im told i,ll be ok and im going to stick by the rules as my son and his wife were very upset about me being ill,but do you no if i could get the low life who pinches the mail i,d flatten him,as you no Tinkerbell the money for the ladys flowers ,well up to now there 15 pound in cash and two cheques gone missing,ive told the ladys ,im so mad about it ,and in two weeks or more i think 2 of my g,daughters are coming over only for along weekend,i told one of my g,daughters sorry to dissapoint your mother but im not dead as thats what my so called daughter wants she said the sooner i die the better,well shes out of luck,i think its going on 1-2 years now since Joyce has gone never met her but we love to chatxx