General Chat

Caz, that is great news, a real Christmas present.
Joyce thank you for your card too.
Glad you enjoyed seeing your family, and glad Jan is better.
Ann
Glos

Welcome to our new posters.

I managed to get OH to put up the Christmas lights finally. It looks very pretty. We brought a stack last year after Christmas at half price. We brought two sets that are solar powered and they work amazingly well, so will get more this year at the sales.

We are going away on Thursday so I can finish my shopping,.

Have been very down and starting to pick up a bit now. There has been so much sadness this past year I think it caught up with me,

I will sort photos and send them off sometime this week,

Love and hugs

gail

Eileen sending postive thoughts and hope all is well for your oppointment
tomorrow at the hospital,good luck will be thinking of you ,as im sure your friends on here will take care your one special lady
Love Dutchxx

Have been clicking on the 'add' thingy, but can't see where to add a reply to.Am trying the 'reply' thingy now.

Thank you Ann & Joyce for your concern. Will hopefully know more tomorrow. It is a relief in a way, to finally kow why I have been feeling so ill for a very long time.Nowadays, even getting up of a morning makes my heart race like mad.

Sorry for not posting here for so long, but I am not too good at opening up to others. Maybe that's why things get on top of me.

Ann (of Glos) kindly offered to 'listen' whenever... so I have been sending her p.ms. It is sooo good to unburden yourself outside your 'loved ones', because they have enough to worry about already.My lovely friend Yvonne is also worried sick, she is scared she will lose me soon. I know and understand how she feels, after losing my other close friend Jeanne in 2006.

Joyce, thanks for your phone call this morning, it cheered me up, and it was good to also 'bend you ear' about certain things. Didn't realise you were already back from your trip, otherwise iIwould have phoned you to ask how it went.

Early start tomorrow. Will take my (lovely!!) sister's tip, will take nightie and wash bag to hospital, just in case they want to keep me in. Don't expect this, because they send you home in a couple of days, even after open heart surgery.She pointed out that it was a long way for my daugher to go, just to collect some things I may need. True!

I wish you all great peace and good health.

Eileen x

Thank you to those who have sent me such lovely messages i had forgotten what a great bunch of people you all are. I have got a Dr appt this afternoon and i am going to ask to see counsellor maybe its time i laid some of my skeletons to rest.
Hubby is being fantastically supportive but i still get scared after what happened with ex that history will repeat itself and that because and happy he will get fed up and leave i am not perfect.

I am always so hard on myself and always think that my imperfections cause everyone else to be miserable.

Had to come home from work cuz i couldnt stop crying cause my daughter was texting me saying that she was not coming home cause of me so had to go to school and sort it out with her, but i explained to her how i was feeling and that when you are depressed you sense of perception goes hence why i got the hump when she made a remark about my weight this morning (she is only 13).

And just to put the tin lid on things i have just realised that i forgot to back up my lasted version of my tree on FTM before the old pc died so got a lot of work to do to put back all that i have lost.

Hope you are having a better day than i am

Claire

Eileen, I am sure your heart racing will be down to your thyroid problem. Your friend is NOT going to lose you yet. Hopefully they will get you sorted on Wednesday so again lots of luck. and continue to PM me any time - I will always eventually catch up with you.

Whitenancy (Claire). sorry you have been having a rough time, hope the doctor is able to sort you out. Just because you had problems with your ex doesn't mean all men are the same. i am sure that you OH will continue to be supportive for you. I hope your daughter now understands that you were annoyed with her because you already felt down and her remark didn't help matters.

What a shame about your tree, still, not the end of the world and you can sort that one.

Ann
Glos

Hello everyone! I'm sorry that I have been away so long. I have been hiding away again.
I have had to rehome Zara, my GSD. I was & still am unable to walk very far & she was getting so bored just being curled up indoors all the time (only 3yrs old). She is now in a home where she gets lots of long walks.
I have also sold Eddie's chicken run & rehomed his girls.

I am not looking forward to Xmas as Eddie was here with me last year. I get so lonely being alone most of the time.

Hugs to all those that need them xx

Hi Angela,

Nice to see you back. I am TH new here. Sorry you are going to be alone this year

I will be as well losted my mum in September, me and my sister go down to her on boxing day for few days. But wont have that this year. My sister lives in Essex and spending with her kids. I live in Milton Keynes.

My kids live near heathrow so will not see thm until after, as daughter will be in Scotland and son will be with his girlfriends family.

I have been ask to go to my sister, but for some reason i feel i want to be on my own.

Will be on here all over christmas, so if you want to put on for a chat i will talk to you. And i think few others will be here as well. As we will not be the only ones by ourselves

(((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Hi all been missing you but I'm not yet ready for a long chat although I have a lot to say.
SOOoooo What's new?? ;-0)
Love to all,
Deanna XXX

Deanna, * chuckling at the fact that you are not ready for a long chat but have a lot to say. good to see you on here. Please just pop in for a few minutes every so often sow e know you are OK. Hope you are beginning to feel better. I wont breath on the keyboard in case you catch my cough. Had the blessed thing for two weeks now, would like to give it away but I wont give it to you!!

Angela, The 'firsts' are always difficult and being your first christmas without your Eddie it will be hard for you. Don't be alone though, don't hide away, there is always somebody here to listen to you and chat. Sorry to hear you had to re-home your dog but i am sure that it was the best thing to do even if hard for you. have you thought of re-homing a cat from an animal shelter. i don't know if you are not a cat lover but it would be company for you and wouldn't need taking for walks.

treehunter, a first for you too which is going to be hard. No doubt you will have many happy memories of your Mum to think about at christmas. My son and his family live in M Keynes, a very convenient place to live we
always think
ann
Glos

I HATE Milton Keynes, ok if you have a car, got friends or was born there.

I dont have any of that.

I do have some family there, but since mum died i only have contract with one brother who lives there, The others well cant put it in words what i feel for them, Done some bad things to do with mum.

I have 7 brother and 2 sister, But now as far as i feel now i only have 2 brothers and 1 sister.

I just want to move back down to Heathrow where my kids and many friends are.

My sister who i am still talking to lives in Essex.

I hope any one comes on here more, as you say even if its a few word just to let us know how they are.

((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))to all of you

Well I'm here now Treehunter but it's not good news this time. Why does everything have to be up one time and down the next. I was so happy about my x-ray result then I had to see my oncologist yesterday. A different one yet again, she explained the first MRI was for radiotherapy, but, on looking at it they noticed something that wasn't on the last one I had. It seems there is some swelling of soft tissue at the bottom of my spine, to one side. They don't know what it is so she asked me to have another MRI with dye so they can tell what it is, they suspect cancer and it is pressing on my nerves to my legs. I said I would if it was after Christmas, she wasn't happy but she went and had a word with the top man and he said yes ok but, I have to ring them straight away if I notice anything slightly different about my legs or feet. My back has been extremely painful just there for the last three weeks so maybe I will find out why.

Lovely to see you back Angela, so sorry about Zara but maybe it was for the best. I'm not looking forward to Christmas so maybe I will join you on here for a while, it will be company while hubby is asleep.

Love and hugs to everyone.

Caz xx

Caz, I am so sorry you have had this setback to knock you down again when you were feeling so relieved. Maybe if we all send positive thoughts it will send whatever it is packing and you will have a further good result instead, will start sending the p.t's right now.

I will be around later on Christmas evening I expect, as once my son has left, o.h. will probably be asleep in his chair and I will be bored so will try and get on here and chat to folk.

Take care, Caz, and all,
lots of love
Lizxxx


Had a pm from Maximary which says lots going on, at home and work and she is run ragged, bless her. Wish I could wave a wand and help her out.
Also had a phone call from Betty Innisfree and she can't get online yet at home, and hasn't had much chance to get to the internet cafe so a bit fed up.

Let's hope next year is a better one for us all.
love
Lizxxxx

Sorry you have had bad news again.

Yes we have few good days, and then bang something else happen.People tell me it makes you stronger when you have things happen like. Well if thats the case i would sooner be bloody weak then.

Now as like most of you i live for each hour, if i make another day without anything happing, i think thats good.

Like today was on way to Kew, but knew i had to get few bits, so got off bus at Hounslow and walked into first shop and fell over, now in even more pain then i was when i went out. So had to come back home as couldnt walk very well.Done all my left side in,spine is now killing me and now my neck has started to hurt.

:-(

Hi all

I have been missing for over a week .I will be getting a ticking off from Carole !!!!

I couldn't stand the new lay out and it hurt my eyes so I stayed off for days.

Caz sorry to hear your latest news especially after such a promising result earlier .Lets all keep our fingers crossed x
I put your name in the healing book at church on sunday .

Treehunter this will be a difficult xmas for you without your mum and being on your own .As others have said we are always here to speak to you .Some of us do the day shift and Liz must have been a bat in a previous life as she holes about all night !!

Angela the same applies to you .Please know that Eddie will be close to you even if you can't see him .

I finally got my heating fixed so I had a lovely hot hot bath to celebrate .What a year of break downs thought that was the last but no my tele decided to die on me 2 days ago .Can you imagine xmas with no tele !!!!!! ( even though most is rubbish ) Well forced my son to come with me to MAKROS so I am now the proud owner of a huge thing which will take some getting used to .My cat thought xmas had come early as he had a great time playing in the empty box .

Next job today is getting my son who is terrified of spiders ( I don't like them either ) to go into the loft and get out the tree and decorations .So if you hear a loud scream you will know he saw one!!!!

love to all

Kathy xxx

hi all, good to see you on here Kathy, have you got the decs down OK? any spiders? glad you got hot water and you didn't need to break the old TV so you could get a nice new big one.

Caz, i am so sorry you have yet another set back, life iis certainly a b**** to you isn't it. Sending lots of love and positive thoughts that it wont be as bad as predicted.

Treehunter, sorry you had a fall. Have you had a hot bath to help the aches?

Liz, thanks for news of Mary and Betty.

eileen had her appointment yesterday and has to go back for a thyroid scan after christmas, meanwhile she is still feeling a bit poorly so could we all send her lots of loving thoughts.

Ann
Glos

just to let you all know phone the hospital to ask about Vicky and they said shes doing fine,im off to bed now got the flu from my young grandson and ive sore throat,take care all
Dutchxx

More news from Mary and life isn't getting easier for her, so lots of folk needing positive thoughts,
love and big hugs to everyone who needs one and some who think they don't too lol

Lizxx

And Kathy, my friend, I might be bats, but I couldn't have been a bat in a previous life, I can't do hanging upside down, never could even in gym lol
I hope you didn't mean an old bat lol

xx

Sorry to Caz ((hugs)) and all the rest feeling so poorly.
Going to wish you all a Christmas Greeting as can't do cards this year, too tough :-((
Treehunter, I was at Kew today with my College group, sorry you didnt make it...get well and take it easy
xxxx
CarolB

Hi Liz sis...she may mean fruit bat ;-)

Sparking Ann i cant get in a bath as i would never be able to get out, Only can have showers now. I loved my baths.

Yes i wished i could have made it to Kew today as there was the forum was on get free lunch as well missed the last 6. So must go next months

Thanks for all your kind words.

((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))to all that are feeling bad and having a bad time of it