General Chat

Well folks, it's not so bad being 21 again.

I've just had quite a shock. My daughter Colleen turned 40 today and was 12 when her father left us. He now lives the other side of Canada (BC) and it's a very rare day if he's in contact. Usually Colleen makes the first move.
I was checking the email a few minutes agao and lo and behold he had sent an e-card for her birthday. i sw his name and immediately began to shed some tears. I had so hoped he would remember, and was afraid to remind him in case he backed away again. Now he's done it by himself.
The funny aspect is that it came through my email address, so I thought initially it was for me LOL.
Should have known better LOL. That would definitely have been a first. So sad the children don't know their grandfather. - the one who has gifted them with his genes and the most fascinating family tree.
Off to have our b'day dinner now - roast beef, gravy, horseradish, baked potatoes with sour cream, fresh green beans and cauliflower with a cheese sauce. (And oh yes a bottle of Ontario Sauvignon Blanc wine, which I'll be compelled to drink all by myself!!)
The best part will be the sweet, an ice cream cake with a fudge and cookie crumb filling!
Oh my cholesterol.
have a good evening all, and thanks for all the good wishes, much appreciated.
Mary

Have just read Dizzi's poem, had me in tears. It was wonderful to read.

Mary hope you had a wonderful day and Colleen to of course. How great to share a birthday, and what a wonderful gift for you.

We have been having storms here so do not know how long I will be on again today. Beautiful rain, so am not complaining.

Carole, have had a very mixed time today reading these posts, firstly reading your post I had the giggles so bad, and also reading Sharron's then to Dizzi's poem a jag of tears. Funny but both have made me feel better.

I am getting very good at C&P ing.

Will try and get back after OH is at work.

Love and hugs

Gail

Mary Hope your daughter had a lovely day, and it was nice that her father remembered. Many absent fathers don't.

xx

We really have had a very nice day albeit quiet and personal.
I was absolutely stunned by my little namesake,miniMary, who had taken all her savings and bought her Mum a fancy topper (which is several sizes too big but can be returned), and then bought me a pair of shoes I had admired and left the shop because it was more than I would consider spending. What a wonderfully generous child of 11. I told her Mummy I just feel sick that she would spend so much money, when she as yet has little understanding of good value. My goodness I'd normally get 3 pairs for that price.
However, the dear child had heard me admire them and wanted to get me something she was positive I'd like. She has saved for a year, pocket money plus earning money from reading, $1 for every 100 pages she's read. She started out reading for the money but has developed a love of reading as a result.
there's a reason I would normally have 3 pairs for the price. I bargain shop because funds are always tight - I'd normally check the price and worry about comfort later. These are like gloves and may convince me to get back to walking, in comfort.
What a wonderful child. I am so blessed.
Now I'm off to bed,
good night all.
mary

What a horrid day I have had today. Wont go into all of it but I will tell you what topped it off.

I constantly dust my chickens for lice and have been very good at it. We have had a fair bit of rain and lots of wild birds in the yard. I had to clean some brooder pens out and one had lice. I ended up covered from head to toe with the little buggers and I am also allergic to them, I had a shower and scrubbed and scrubbed and washed my hair 3 times. Had to take anti histamines and I still itch. So after dark I now have to go and put lice powder on every one again just in case.

If you do not hear form me I am too busy scratching.

Love and hugs

gail

PS I will wear my shower cap to the chickens tonight, probably scare them to death.

Mary,
You are certainly blessed with such a wonderful g.daughter.

Carole, the tale of your cousin's coloscopy is hilarious, just the thing to start off a bad day.The wind is stilll howling and it is raining.My daughter Sarah is going to get drenched when she has to cycle (45 mins.) to her appointment later on.Have to leave soon.Only hope the trains are running on time.

Gwen, that is a lovely, moving poem.It brought a lump to my throat.

Claire & Caz.thank you both for your p.m's, will reply later this evening or tomorrow, depending how tired I am.

The stairs at Sarah's place are dangerous, even she says this.Little Floris is 27 months, baby Anna was born on Easter day, so needs carrying downstairs.

Hope your day is better than the weather!

Eileen x

morning everyone its been a while since ive been on here so have alot of post reading to catch up on so please for give me for not replying to all posts ,but i do hope that you are all well and send hugs to all ,first can i start by asking how deanna is ?i will read through post latter incase ive missed a update i do hope she is recovering please can somone send her my love xx ,well its been hectic here back an forth to gp and hospital with hubby still ,he not getting on to well with this pacemaker ,he hasto have a heart moniter fitted for 24 hours now and they want to cheak out pacmaker before it due to be done .he having some uncomfortable cheast pains ,gp has faxed th consultant at hospital .and as for me well i did a silly thing i tryed to come of my meds citalipram and gues what ive not slept proply since , sweats ,trouble sleeping ect ect so im bk on them ,i promise ill catch up with everyone soon hugs and love to all xxx

IM SORRY IF IT MADE YOU CRY

BUT MY WAY TO SAY

THE DRAGON IS ONLY DOZING IN ALL OF US

SOME ARE LUCKY BUT FOR THOSE WHO

FOUGHT HIM I THINK WE SHOULD BE PROUD

WE ARE THE STRONGER

WELL DONE XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Dizzi's poem made me cry because it is really so beautiful, especially for those of us who have slayed that dragon. Thank you Dizzi.

Gail

Christine, with you in thought today. If you have a photo of your brother why not put it in a frame and put some flowers by it for his birthday.

Ann
glos

I don't think you can ever really kill that dragon but you can put his fire out if you try.

Partner has been downstairs and the old man is a little ray of sunshine this morning.I think yesterday was all too much for him,a bit overwhelmed.It didn't help that I seem to have been a bit hormonal too.Last knockings I am pleased to say.

I always said that I didn't suffer from PMT or the menopause but I made very sure everybody else did! You must give yourself a little pleasure.

As usual smarty pants Sharron you are correct. So keep my fire extinguisher very handy. Actually had to hose him down today, by keeping busy. Dizzi's poem really touched me.

Gail

Morning everyone.

Oh dear, Gail I'll send you a back scratch-er for Christmas! xx

Elaine lovely to see you. My goodness you have had to be going out a lot and you did it! Well done you. xx Hope your oh is soon feeling much better xx

Sharron I love your way with words xx

Mary and Colleen what lovely surprises for you both xx

Dizzi your poem shows a deep understanding of how depression raises its ugly head for us.
I hope you will join us on here more often xx

Christine thinking of you today xx

Eileen have fun with your daughter xx

I'm going for coffee with the lady I went to ballet with. The partner of a man I work with. Don't know her very well but she asked me out . No excuses, I said OK. A year ago I would have cried and not known how to get out of going.
But now I'm thinking a new friend. You have all helped me get here. The feeling I get from you all that yes, I am like able has been a terrific lift

Carole, hope you enjoyed your coffee meet with your new friend. had a vision then of you doing ballet dancing!!!!

Gail, now you have made me itch!!!! didn't realise you had to de-flea hens!!

Ann
Glos

hi all,saw this thread and thought it must have been made for me! my doctor has put me on citalopram today its an antidepressant,ive got the flu so wont be taking them or a few days but a bit worried,my gp said they arent addictive but you never know do you? im hoping its a shortterm thing as i dont want to be on them but im really down at the moment,good news is his sending me for counselling as well which i really prefer! hello to everyone and hope your all having a lovely afternoon,:)

Hello Maxine, there are several on this thread who are either on the same medication or have been on it or are on similar. so hang around until somebody responds. good that you are being sent for counselling as that is what seems to work for most people.

Welcome to our little group anyway, we are a friendly bunch and there is usually somebody to chat to.

ann
glos

Hello maxine, you will be alright on Citalopram as it's not addictive. I used to be on it but my gp changed me to something else, most of the girls on here are on it though and it does work. I have had the counciling bit as well and it's marvelous, really got me sorted. You will end up in tears at first but that's normal, stick with it.

Can I have a grumble, or more likely a scream. I got a phone call this afternoon from the MRI department, she asked me if I could come in next Wednesday for another scan. I nearly flipped my lid but it wasn't her fault. Yesterday they did the scan without the dye as they thought it would show what they wanted. Oncologist looked at scans this morning and it doesn't show what he wants so I have to go back for another with dye.I told oncologist I wasn't going to have radiothery as they had told me it would only kill the pain but make me ill and damage surrounding tissue. I've just spoke to my doctor and she said to ring Chris on Monday as she can talk direct to oncologist and find out what's going on.
I honestly don't think I can go through with another scan, I touched the sides yesterday as I've put so much weight on and it scared me silly with being claustrophobic. I only went through with it as I wasn't sure who had sent me, it could have been Neurologist.

Will it never end?

Caz xx

Oh Caz, it is just one thing after another for you isn't it? I hope Chris can sort things out for you. I can quite understand why some people eventually say "no more treatment", it seems never ending. however, if another scan means they will know how to control the pain might it not be worth gritting you teeth and going for one more? Can they give you a tranquiliser?

Ann xx

The morphine is controlling the pain Ann, and I have the quick booster morphine capsules for when pain is bad. I'm not willing to undergo radiotherapy just to zap the pain, the doc said I would be ill and it would damage my healthy tissue round the cancer site and I am ill enough without making myself more ill. It's so frustrating that they don't listen to you and respect your wishes. It would be different if radiotherapy was being used to kill the cancer but it's not.

I suppose I am feeling grumpy because I can't lay flat because of my back and had to yesterday, it must have disturbed one of my slipped discs because the sciatica pain has come back.

Caz xx

Caz I'm so sorry but go on you can do it one more time. Kick ass though!! xx

Maxine nice to see you here. I'm on 40mg of citalopram. It really helped with my psychologist meetings, as without it I know I would have been crying my eyes out. I feel much stronger now than a year ago. I think it suits me better than prozac and some other widely used drugs.

Had a nice meeting with my friend this morning then I went into Debenhams to look round as there is a sale on. Got a couple of gifts for Xmas for people. xx