General Chat

Claire, No one was offended. I was concerned that someone needed to talk or needed us to listen and maybe me for one did not. I was worried.

Congratulations on the new addition on the way. How exciting for you. Now you must post to let us know you are okay and we can share your joy with this new little life. We are here if you need us or you are welcome to PM.

Love and hug

Gail

Claire, thank you for clearing up that mystery. of course you have not offended anyone, we were just confused as there is always a race for the oooth post and Gail made the 5000, then she hadn't Lol!!!

Please do come on here for support. Congratulations on your pregnancy although i appreciate your worry. i do hope all goes well for you this time. I assume there are no tests they can do pre birth for autism. But you have one child without autism as well so hopefully this one will be fine too. I am sure somebody can advise about your drugs and pregnancy as well.

I am glad you have beaten the depression, yes there were a few nasty spats but they didn't touch us on here so you can feel relatively safe.

please keep chatting to us.

Ann
Glos

I have never seen anybody take the Mick on this thread. Every one of us has the silliest thoughts you can think of,that is what stress and depression are about.

In the past I have had a phase where I was afraid to get in the bath and to walk round the balcony to the reference library because they could fall down when I was on them. My ex thought all Scotsmen were out to kill him for a while.

Must admit I have felt patronized by a couple of men on other threads and have thrashed them but I don't really understand cyber-bullying. They are only messages but I suppose I am not vulnerable at the moment.

Does anybody know how Whitenancy got on about her mother? Now that was proper bullying!

Hello all,

Not posting regularly makes me feel guilty, so after mailing Carole earlier, I decided to scrape courage to post.

Am having trouble with the internet this morning, it has taken me over 20 minutes to get this far.

Claire, I have deleted in the past, in case anything happened to me, was rather scared that my loved ones would know how I feel inside, because I always try to put on a 'what, me care'? face.Have not deleted anything since. Hope your pregnacy goes smoothly.Congratulations.

Even reading about tooth problems (the pain must be terrible) gives me the willies.

Carole's photos of the Amish country/people were lovely, couldn't get to see the ones of the Niagara Falls though. She told me to copy & paste (?), but do you think I know how to do this????

My lovely friend Yvonne was here yesterday morning, we talked about everything and anything.Cried too, something I very rarely do when anyone else is present. When she heard I have a new appointment with the cardiologist 11 dec. she insisted on going with me, even thought it's her birthday on that day.

Please think of me on thursday at 14.00, have to go to an extremely unpleasant 'intervieuw'.

Have not mentioned all of you,but keep you in my thoughts,

Love to all, Eileen xx

Eileen,
I will think of you on Thursday when you go to your appointment and hope all will be well.

Good to see you post on here and glad you could unburden yourself to your friend. hope she was able to help you

ann
glos xx

I have posted the 5000th post but Gail holds the honours anyway so ignore this one!

Tony just sent email hes gone to pick up his mum ,Deanna is coming home
Dutchxx

thank you Joyce, great news.

Ann
glos

Morning all, dear Claire, so glad you were able to post. And congrats on your new little blessing, it will be special because it's yours, regardless of any potential diagnosis. You know I'm familiar with autism in the family, it's a tough one, but I've learned so much about patience and unconditional love through these children.
Sending hugs to your family, and especially for yourself. Bless you for sharing.
Love
Mary XXX

Hello again,

Grey miserable weather, but, there is one ray of sunshine, Deanna coming home at last.

Joyce rang me when I saw just about to go out, thinking it was my daughter trying to hurry me up, I said "yes El." Whoops! She told me about Deanna, great news.My p.c is playing up a lot more today, so had it switched off and didn't see the mail from Tony. This has cheered me up a lot, as it must have done for others.

Ann, once again, thank you for your kind words, it does help. This friend, Yvonne, knows most of what has happened since we met at a third world project we set up, with 3 other people, back in the early '70's, I know all her problems, unhappy times, so we can talk freely, without having to be afraid the other will be put off.She and another lovely friend Jeanne, who died in oct. 2006, were the ones that stuck by me the most when I had the first nervous breakdown.These are the real friends, not 'fair weather' ones that fall by the wayside when things are not fun & laughter.
I am dreading thursday, but, in a way, it may allow me to see what the furture holds for me, the devil you know etc.
My daugther Fiona is coming down from Amsterdam tomorrow.This is the one who drove her car into a ditch.Am in two minds about her driving down...let alone going back in the rush hour.
Have to go to Amsterdam to look after my youngest daughter's two little ones on friday.My greatest fear is that I could have another 'attack' (passing out) whilst being alone with them.This has happend quite a few times, a couple of times in the street.Soooo embarrassing, but dangerous whilst caring for little ones.Will tell Fiona tomorrow, knowing her, she will offer to come along too.

Sorry for rambling on and on, when most of you have such terrible things going on in your lives.Makes me feel even more guilty for posting/not posting......

Will mail Deanna in a few days, will just let her settle down with her loved ones first.

Love to all. Eileen xx

Eileen, will you stop apologising. You ramble away as I am sure it helps you. Do you think worrying about passing out makes it happen? Do you wear an alert bracelet to inform people of your condition? How old are the children? is it possible you could warn them so they are prepared and not frightened. children are very good at coping even at a young age.

ann
Glos

Ann, no, I don't wear an alert braclet.Have always thought it wouldn't happen again, until the next time. The little ones are only two and a half, the baby was born on Easter sunday.Their house is anything but 'child friendly', so this worries me more.For instance, there is no handrail on the stairs..just imagine! That is why I will talk this over with my other who lives near to her youngest sibling. Don't want to alarm anyone, more than they are already, they have had enough worries over the years with my bad health, ie. lung op, due to cancer, open heart op. etc. and also know my days are counted, so to speak, but don't want to put an added burden on them. This does not depress me, there are so many other things far harder to take. My eldest is my worst worry.

Will p.m you soon Ann.

Eileen. x

Claire congratulations xxx hope you will keep us informed as you go through your pregnacy.
When is the first scan? I noticed you had not posted for a while but didn't want to pester you if you didn't want to post! It is difficult when to know not to bother people and when they may need a nudge. Welcome back with us xx

Nudges for Jules, Kathy, Carolina, Caz C, Elaine, Claire ( the other one), Joyce, Ann GG,
Dawn, Angela, Dave, Ben, Malc, Fran, Forgetmenot, Paula, scratches head....who have I missed out?

Sending a ~~~~~ to Gill xx

Also got a message Deanna is going home. I'm so pleased for her. Would anyone have time to do a collection for us, to send her some flowers? x

Eileen here you are, I come to put a wanted post on here for you and you're chatting away.
Pleased you felt the need to post. That was more scary for you to do earlier on in the year. So what a great improvement in your confidence that is. xxx

Any news of Y Caz? Hope she is going to be back.xx

Thanks Carole, you are kindness itself.

A very good friend of Gill's mails me often. Have to admit I find it very upsetting and saddening how she has been hounded off the boards. To be honest, it is more difficult to deal with nowadays, now that I am in not in a too good shape to help, the poor love, wish I could do more.

Hope Caz is o.k? Joyce (Dutch) is not too happy about her.
So, caz. If you are reading this, I hope you are alright, not in pain.We are all thinking of you and wishing you well.

Love. Eileen xx

just to add as im not going on the boards for while which i have put up on general,but Y/Caz has email me shes still not well and is going for another scan but is getting her rest thats the main thing,but she,ll be on when she feeling abit better,mean while i wish you all better days take care all
Dutchxx

Joyce thank you for keeping us informed of all these poorly people and you yourself aren't grand either. No wonder you need a break.
I will mail you in a day or so to see how you are, please don't leave the boards for too long.

Best wishes to everyone else who is suffering at this time.

Love Gillie XXX

eileen, I am in contact with Gill, she is OK.

Ann
Glos

Thanks Ann.Her friend is very worried, and this is not too good for her (bad) health.

Eileen xx

Hello everyone, I won't say I am ok because I am not yet but enough to be up for a while. Carole, Tinkerbelle arrived, she is so sweet, thank you, don't know what the postman thought because it arrived with a couple from Joyce which dwarfed it. My first Christmas card and a get well card from Joyce, I hadn't realised Christmas was so near, never gave it a thought.
I haven't had computer on so I don't know what you have all been up to, will have to read all your posts later.
I got a letter yesterday asking me to go for a MRI scan on Thursday morning 8-15, blimey they must have shoved me in. In fact my doctor came to see me this afternoon, got me out of bed, and said she thinks it is the oncologist who ordered it. She had a letter with her from oncologist saying the nerves to my legs are being compressed by the cancer in spine. I don't understand it as they have been trying since 2001 to find out why my legs don't work, including MRI scans, and I was told only last year or the back end of year before about having cancer in spine.

Carole I did think of letting my subscription lapse as even typing is such a big effort just now, then I thought of all my friends who I would lose contact with. I won't be posting as much but I will be reading, even just typing this my fingers are full of pins and needles, holding a knife and fork or the phone is so hard and I don't know why. I am rambling so I will shut up.

Love and hugs to all.
Caz xx

Caz I hope Tink brought you a smile. Thank you for that lovely post, not just a note either!
I wish you good luck with your scan as I'm sure everyone on here does. You are so well thought of, I'm sure you know.

Dutch Joyce silly me I added to your thread and thought you were going away on holiday.
What did it mean? Are you going away from home or just a break from GR? Love to you anyway xx

Eileen, keep your head up, and try a smile it will make you feel better xxx

Gail as it is getting colder here and warmer down there, I am going to organise a trip, for all who want to come stay with you for the summer. Please get beds ready, and stock up on food. lol x. Anyone interested please let me have numbers and best dates xx