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morning all i have posed on main board thismorning ive just got a few mins spare so i thought id pop on well we all set for the off dinner time ,carole thank you for your message deannna thank you for your wishes well just to thank everyone on here and send big hugs to you all and sorry i carnt mention you all by name as mind in a mess im not to good today hubby is calmer than me ,am shaking reallly bad thismorning anx leveals are really high ,well il be of now and ill update you all soon thank you all my friends xxx elaine from the bottom of my heart xx

Well I am back from holiday.

Elaine, my thoughts are with you and with your OH I am praying that all goes well for him and that you will soon be a little less anxious.

for our holiday, the weather was mixed, not too bad the beginning of the holiday when we were at Sawrey, staying in our daughter's apartment for three days, and quite good on Thursday and Friday this week. In fact Friday we took a Freedom of the Lake ticket for the steamers on Windermere and went from Lakeside to Bowness, then on to Ambleside where we got off and walked up into the town, back to the boat and a trip to Bowness where we again got off and walked up intot he town, htis time for lunch. then back to the boat and a final trip back to Lakeside. There was a cold wind but the sun shone and it didn't rain. the weather was horrible on Saturday when it rained hard all day and was windy and cold. It seemed much colder up there than down here and one day was only 9.5 degrees according to the car outside temp reader. A couple of days we had the electric heater on and three days we had the gas fire on all evening. still the gas bill was only £2 and the electric £10. I had a lovely facial on Tuesday. We ate in the Fishermans bar of the hotel four times, twice we had fish and chips as we met our friends Brenda and Jean on the first Friday and went with them, then went again this friday as it was such good value, just £4.75 but we had to order before 7pm. Luckily we had no problem with petrol so that was one thing.

We knew we had a problem when we arrived to be told they desperately needed rain and had had none for ages. The river was so low you could have walked across it, the ducks were walking on the gravel at the bottom. But by this morning the river was flowing well and the level was high. The pair of swans have got 9 cygnets and a lot of the duck pairs had babies, one had 7 tiny ducklings.

We didn't do much walking as the wind was so cold but visited paper warehouse, Hayes, Lakeland, Colony candle factory shop, Hawkeshead, Ambleside, Bowness and Grasmere GC and spent money in each place.

I will go and read through what has been happening this week on this thread now.

Ann
Glos

Welcome back, Ann, glad you enjoyed your time away, it is always over too soon, don't you think? Seems ages since we were away but only three weeks ago we had spent our first weekend there and now it is long gone!
Love to all and hope this week is a good one for everyone.
I have an apptmt with my doctor and the asthma nurse Monday, today, but forgot to book a double apptmt, as I have a lot to talk about with her. Haven't got round to sorting out new apptmt with counsellor but must be out of sight, out of mind as she hasn't chased me up either. Will keep you posted re Beating the Blues etc if doc can put me on that.
Lizx

Yes Liz, over much too soon, although this time it was good to get back down here where it is warmer. Hope all goes well with appointments today.

I have read back through the ten days we were away, wont try and catch up except to say, Joyce that is an interesting therapy you are trying, i guess it will help several on this thread too.

SueM, you are a feisty, funny, intelligent lady, we would never label you. sometimes the medical profession are wrong, sometimes things sort themselves out. i wish I had a pound for every time I forgot a word (I am always doing it, so frustrating,) or a name, or why I had just come upstairs etc. i read that as we get older, each year we have more information to store and sort through and that these sort of gliches with our brain forgetting silly things is nothing to do with dementia but more to do with brain overload. Do as you have been doing for 2 years. put it to the back of your mind.

Ann
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can i just come on here and cry or scream please yes its me we back home from the hospital well they got him all ready for theatre we watied and watied and watied then after a very long anx crying time was told no bed in icu was avaliable and to go home we are just a wreack and worn out totaly both emotionaly and physicly but then he has to go back in on whensday for opp thursady morning now so we have to go through it all again how much more stress my body can take im not sure xxelaine xx

awww Elaine

(((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

sorry to hear the delay

hope wednesday comes quickly for you

Gill

Elaine, that is utterly disgraceful, I had it happen to me years ago altho I didn't get as far as going to the hospital. Hope things go better when you try again on Wednesday.
Lizxx

elaine, so sorry for you both, don't know who to be more sorry for it is so stressful for you both.

Hope that the op goes ahead as planned now on Thursday.

Ann
Glos

Doctor today told me about 'Living Life to the full' - a site for people with problems and depression so I am going to join up later on and see if I can use the cognitive behavious therapy to get on top of my ocd.
It is free to join up so others of you might find it useful too.
Keep us posted, I told her about the Beating the Blues site and she is going to look at that and see what she thinks, and tell her colleagues too.

At last our doctor's surgery which has been in an old house for years and years, is having an update and expanding, so will be lovely to visit soon I hope. At the mo it is very much behind the times, and I have to struggle up the stairs to my doctor's surgery.
Lizx

Just popping in to see if anyone has been here. Lovely to see Ann back. Holiday sounds lovely.xx

Liz did you look at that site your doc told you about? xx

Elaine fingers and toes crossed for you for Wednesday and Thursday xxx

Gill how are you? xx

Mary -Lou trying to think good thoughts, the others creep up without me noticing them soon enough! xx

Y Caz ~~~~ thanks for your emails xx

Deanna your bin men are going to wonder who elses rubbish you are putting in your bin ! xx

Mary come and tell us all about Coleens presentation ! xx

Kathy how have you been? Have you had your first commitee meeting yet? xx

Eileen thinking of you xx

Sue sending healing thoughts to you xx

Paula ~~ how are you? xx

C Caz ~~~ hello xx

Irene still thinking of you xx

Sharron and Sharon how have you been?xx

Dave what you been up to? xx

Ben have you been controlling your ocd ? xx

Malc hope the honeymoon is fun! ;O) xx

Carolina are you all okay? xx

Wondering if Gail's flights went okay xx
I'm so excited for her

Christine hope you have picked up a bit xx

Jules always close in my thoughts xx

Ann GG hope you are keeping okay xx

oh God who have I missed ?
I know I'll get in bed and remember someone else!
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sorry if I missed you I will remember you later !!!
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Rach !!!xxx I knew someone else would come to mind

Carole.... ours and half the street..... ;-0)

Still it is gone now and we are happy about it.

Can't stay.... going shopping now.

IT'S A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!

LISA HAS HAD HER BABY AND SON AND I ARE GOING OUT TO SPEND SPEND SPEND.....

Haven't been this excited for years.

see you later.
love to all
Deanna XX

Afternoon all....

Carole, thanx for rememering me in your list of fellow posters... :o)

Have been very under the weather here. Had a toothache for week which, last weekend turned into a monster abscess,the dentist says is working its way thro the bone, I am/have been in the worse pain have ever felt n that's aswell as being drugged up to the eyeballs with Ibprofen, Codine n Paracetamol...worse pain than giving birth n that I've done 4 times!
Got to the emergency dentist on Sunday morning n without any anastetic went straight in with his drill n took my filling out..!! Still couldn't get to the abscess to release the puss so had to put up with a very very swollen face till the antibiotics kick in anyday now. It's easing abit now but I had terrible trouble talking n swallowing which was scary. I'm still very sore when the painkillers wear off but today is the first day I have got up n venturing out...going to try work tomorrow, see how I get on.
Once the swelling has gone he's going to take the tooth out..........

Apart from that I'm fine, new anti depressants seem to be agreeing with me n working ok... :o)

Right....me n my oversized face are going to scare the whole school now.....off to pick lil one up...

Love n hugs to all xxxxxx

had a bad couple of days and now i feel like giving up and do what i always do and running away.

I have today done my last official day on placement as a student.

Yestersday i turned up to my placement (in a school) in my usual smart clothes only to find out that they were having a arts & crafts day and everyone is wearing jeans.
I had already asked the class teacher i have working with if i could stay on on a voluntary basis till the end of term she said ok but needed to run it past the head first 3 weeks later she still hadnt asked the head, so i went and asked the head myself who seemed some what reluctant but agreed i could do 1 day a week (have been doing 2).

Then today the head totally blanked me, we had a supply teacher who kept me sidelined doing other tasks all day and wouldnt even let me read a story to the class ( a task i have done many times) without checking it out first with the head.

I then found out that one of the teaching assistants was going on a dyspraxia awareness day which is a subject close to my heart as my son has dyspraxia and i suspect i do to. When i asked if it was for professionals only or could anyone go she seemed to give the impression it was for professionals only yet i found out it was open to anyone so i suggested that if i was going to go to this meeting could we possibly travel together. I can only say that the look on her face was one of abject horror she then started running on about how she hoping her husband was going to go with her and how she might have to come into work first etc etc.

I know i am not always very good a reading people but...... now it is begin to bring my paranoia back are people laughing at me behind my back what gives me the right to think i could be good at working with kids and maybe i should just go and get a job in a factory and give up all hope of trying to do something better with my life.

Sorry for the long rant just feeling very very low

An now i just got phone call from my nephew my sister has not gone back to the house where they are house/dog sitting and he has just found out through a friends mum that she is pissed as a fart somewhere

Make that so drunk she has fallen over and cut her head and let her own dog roam the streets.

If i wasnt having a bad day before i am now!

Thanks snow white

Whitenancy, I am sure you are worried about your sister but she is the one who got herself drunk, she is not your responsibility. i assume she is an adult? Put yourself first. You sound tired, i am sure that is the result of working with children.

It sounds as if you are working with some very bad mannered and unfriendly people. is there any chance that you will be able to get a placement in another school next time or have you completely finished now? i also suspect it is a very busy time for all teachers and assistants and tempers/patience may fray a little. maybe the assistant genuinely was expecting to go with her husband, maybe to travel with you would take her out of her way. Try not to take it personally, go to the talk, you will find it useful.

If you suspect the head is blanking you, be brave, ask to see her and ask her if you have done anything wrong, she may just be having a bad day.

Is that your training finished, do you now wait to apply for jobs? or are you back at college.

Don't get disheartened, if you are getting a break soon, enjoy that and go back refreshed afterwards. Don't waste your training. Do you get feed back about the placement?

Come on here to rant any time. we will listen

Ann
Glos

evening everyone well im tucked up in bed trying to get some relaxation or sleep eventaly i hope, well we all set for the off to the hospital again tomorrow dinner time fingers crossed all goes ahead this time dont no what we would do or feel if it was canciled again ,just want it all over and hubby getting better am dreading the day of the opp lump in throat just thinking about it well ive said all this before so im of now dont no if ill be back on before sunday so will update as soon as im bk hugs to all elaine

Hi Carole and thanks for remembering.
I have been having a pretty bad few days mood-wise, with some extra anxiety thrown in for me physically.
Colleen's presentation went very well, she received her cheque for $10,000 USD, and now has to wait up to 5 weeks for it to clear the bank because it's an international cheque.
It will be such a HUGE help in relieving some of her debt load as a full-time student, which will also take some pressure off me. There will be a much more detailed news item in the local newspaper this friday. I hesitate to put a link on here in case I am overstepping . . . . she has so appreciated the positive encouragement from others, as a result of the article.
I did something I swore I would never do, and this was to contact her father by email with an online copy of the news item. I have had pretty negative responses him the few times I've written,or no acknowledgement at all.
I was out in the garden weeding that evening, and Colleen came outside with tears running down her cheeks,"my father cares". I'll get me started again . . . . almost 40 years old and a positive short note from her father reduced her to tears. This all happened an hour after my grandkid's father (Colleen's ex) called for the first time in 7 weeks and APOLOGISED for not calling (something he never does) - which had the kids all excited. Regardless of how insensitive SOME fathers can be, he is still their father.
So in one hour, 2 fathers made attempts to redeem themselves in the eyes of their children.
So there are some good moments..
I was pleased today, found an old wicker chair outside a thrift shop, for $5 - took it home and painted it shiny white. And got some plants (half-price) to sit on the chair seat and trail over the sides. Look quite sweet actually.
The fence finally went up today so Sarah will be safer. It also looks good. I was quoted $3000 by a fence expert and my handyman friend erecting it has saved me $2000. Now of course, I see the potential for another flower bed in front of it!!!!
I'd appreciate some positive thoughts/prayers, as I'm having some scary symptoms and my doc is sending me for a scope down into the intestine and another upwards. I am scared stiff, trying to think positive but, although I state "if it's something sinister (which it may be - and for which there is a huge history in my family), we'll deal with it then", yet my other side is shaking on the inside and tears are close to the surface.
To top everything off, my second cousin in the Uk who has advanced MS, has now developed increasing dementia, and I so wanted to see her while she knew who I am. I found her on GR (through her hubby) in Feb 2005, and was so thrilled to find her again after 31 years "missing". Now I may have waited too long to fly over, through no fault of my own, it's just so frustrating.
Sorry I seem to need to be on the receiving end for support right now.
sending hugs and love to all those who need them, sorry if I appear to be whining and feeling sorry for myself. I am - LOL..
Hugs,
Mary

Mary, you aren't whining, we all come on here to let stuff out, but that isn't whining.
I will be thinking lots of positive thoughts for you while you get the tests done and hope the results show nothing insurmountable and preferably nothing at all! Keep us posted and know we are always all behind you, like the cow's tail!
Betty, thanks love for thinking about me. I am getting very behind with a lot of things altho did do some phone calls today to try and sort out a few niggly problems, didn't get far but a little progress. Was a bit low myself Tuesday morning but got outside doing laundry and gardening after o.h. went to work and felt a bit better.
love and hugs to all those feeling low, and unhappy, anxious or scared. If I could wave a wand and make things good for you, I would.
Lizxxxx